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Friday, July 02, 2010
So I just returned from FTB 2010 yesterday! I was soooooo tired after that and my arms ached like crazy when I got back. Thank goodness I cabbed home after the camp because my bags were super heavy. I over packed for the camp thinking I would get really dirty and would need multiple changes of clothing. However, the number required in the packing list was just about right so that resulted in a heavier bag for me. Furthermore, the clothes were wet with sea water and sweat. That pretty much doubled the weight or something.
SEA WATER + SWEAT = UNPLEASANT
Well as for the camp, it was quite fun I guess. Judging from how prejudiced I am against camps in the first place, it was okay. LOL. Games, cheering, hard floors,bad food and dirty toilets. What more do you expect? I guess what really matters is the people you meet and the friendships made. My group had a good mix of people from different schools with different personalities. I guess my own inferiority complex made it difficult for me to make friends at first, but I think it got better. I don't know why it is that I always worry about what other people will think of me, yet I want to be so much more outgoing and fun. The guys in my group were really outgoing and took the lead in most games. They were all really on and took on the most physical burden. I don't know how it is that after all that I'm still aching in my neck, back and arms. In the end, our group did really well for the stations and came in first in the final challenge in our wave. Well done! (: Hahah saw a few cute guys too but could not ogle so much. Seeing SMU really makes me quite excited to go back to school. It looks really new and state of the art. And the gym, OMG! I need to totally go there and work out! I have to fully utilise it since I'm paying such high fees, and hopefully lose some weight too! The holidays are really getting to my tummy. :( I seriously cannot believe that I put on weight AFTER the camp! Like WTHeck seriously? I don't know whether my FTB group will remain friends or what will happen when we see each other in school in the future. When I suggested meeting outside of camp like an outing or something, they weren't so keen or enthusiastic about it. Someone has got take lead to organise it and I'm not sure I want that person to be me.
Today I went for the community service briefing which started at 10am. Going out early straight after coming back from camp, I was a little sleepy but managed to stay awake nevertheless. Met Lauren and Lynette there. It was great to see them again since they would need to go to FTB too! After the talk we had to sign up for the various CSPs and pay for our camps. Lauren almost got convinced or sweet talked into joining sports camp until she found out she needed to undergo a swim test. It was so funny she was like, "I cannot swim at all!". Walking around the booths I signed up for the accountancy, biz and special interest camps! I can't believe I would be going for a grand total of 4 camps altogether, what more coming from someone so un-into camps as me. I guess I have a little bit of changed my attitude towards camps now. After that, Lauren and I ate at Astons at Cathay. I had no idea that Astons was sooooo cheap! I had the Hickory BBQ grilled chicken while Lauren had the Terriyaki, both of which were served cold to us. Tsktsk, I wouldn't say I wont be patronising them anymore because of that but I actually want to try the beef steak hahah. Maybe I should have eaten that instead. Anyway was super full after that and had a great time talking to Lauren even though we see each other so often! We pinkyswore to each other to do the following:
1. Run around Sentosa 2. Watch Eclipse 3. Go shopping at Haji Lane or some other interesting unconventional shopping spots 4. Go to Dempsey 5. Watch Gossip Girls at either my place or hers! XOXOXO
Suddenly my July looks like loads of fun! I think I need a planner like what Lauren and Lynette have so as to not forget all the things I need to do! I'll prolly just print out July's calender since I've got one from FTB.
XOXOXO
Handwritten at.8:32 PM
SCHOOL
Monday, June 28, 2010
I have to say I do miss school quite a bit. Lauging with friends, going for recess, spying on the guy sitting at the next table and nursing a crush on the teacher. Yes, its these silly frivolous things that I miss. I'm quite sure I've forgot most hardcore academics from school, but I'm excited to begin again. I've chosen to study at SMU doing accountancy and Business. I'm actually still apprehensive, my heart still lies with the sciences and math. I can't help wondering if I made the wrong choice in giving up my place in Chemical Engineering. I just pray that time will tell...
Tomorrow I'll be off to Freshman Camp. Honestly, I find it hard to be excited about it. I'm really just thinking of all the ways in which it can go wrong. I hope we don't end up doing silly retarded activities that put people (ie me) in akward positions. I'm speaking from experience here, I guess its obvious I haven't had positive experiences! After this camp, I'll have 2 more to go!
ALRIGHT! POSITIVITY! FREE YOUR MIND!
Handwritten at.8:11 PM
Max
Little Honey Buns.
Handwritten at.8:04 PM
Random Thoughts
Monday, May 24, 2010
Is this my first post of 2010? Hopefully I'll blog more often, but not about silly things i hope. So much has happened, yet so little. In a whiz, almost 5 months have passed. I've done so much, yet so little. Again, I hate to look back and think that I have gained so little from junior college, from life. Every moment should be a learning point, and every moment should be a meaningful one, one in which brings value to a person's life. And yet, if you live like me, unconcious of every moment and living as you take each day, there's very little to be satisfied about.
I've been working for five months. 2 months in Starhub, 3 at Raffles Hospital. Looking back, I used to complain about the work in Starhub, I work too long hours and do the same boring thing over and over again. Well at least the renumeration was satisfactory. Then after, I left to join Raffles with big dreams in my head, thinking that I was getting closer to Dental School and that a medical attachment would prop me in the right direction. Boy was I misguided, I would have been much better off working in a dental clinic. I was denied over and over opportunities to learn more about medical things and could not enjoy all the benefits that should have come with the attachment. I was relegated to doing general administrative work like reception and cashiering instead. It has now lost its meaning, especially so after I found out that I didnt get accepted into dental school. How very realistic of me. Of course I'm grateful for the experience, for whatever minimal learning I did have.
Looking forward to my 2 months break! I hope I don't spend every waking moment watching telly!
Handwritten at.11:25 PM
Hello.
Thursday, February 04, 2010
Hi y'all.
I'm not sure if anyone reads my blog at all seeing that I dont really update it often enough. Its been more than a year now. My life is so boring and monotonous. I hate to be stuck in this kind of mediocracy but I don't know if its in my personality to be so... lacklustre. I dont know, its just that I have never actually tried to make myself stand out, taking leadership positions or joining research or competitions. Never actually consciously making any plans for my future. Somehow I feel most of the time that everyone else has it going for them, and I am the only one stuck in a rut. Of course I have so much to be thankful for and I have to be stop being so inward looking all the time. Self pity, what for? Growing up, I should have found things I love doing, found my idenity and all, but I dont really think I have found anything. Asking myself who I am, what defines me, it just is so frustrating sometimes. I hate to be so wanting everytime. I'm turning 19 this year, omgosh. I havent grown up and matured. I'm not close to my family and dont have many friends. I am thankful that I do have a few close friends whom i know love me for who I am.
I'm having one of those moments again where I fear of being so alone and having such a bla life. From a christian point of view I know that God has plans for me, plans for a hope and future. But I am not sure I have surrendered myself completely at all. Well, I guess doubt makes faith all the more precious. Whats real scary as my cell leader once said, is how God can turn to me and say "I dont know you", because I have not had a relationship with God. Christianity is not a religion, that stung me a couple of times.
If I wasnt so caught up in trying to find a job or attachment, I would really love to try find myself a hobby, something I would really enjoy. Take some time to self reflect maybe? I would really love to learn cooking, drawing and doing some exercise someday. My present job really makes me fat. Welcome to working life, or rather, working in a office life.
Handwritten at.7:09 PM
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Hello my diary.
My first post of 2009. Its been a whirlwind of a year.
Handwritten at.11:35 PM
Monday, December 22, 2008
Beautiful Love Lyrics Artist(Band):The Afters
Far away, I feel your beating heart All alone, beneath the crystal stars Staring into space, what a lonely face I'll try to find my place with you
[chorus] What a beautiful smile Can I stay for awhile? On this beautiful night We'll make everything right My beautiful love, my beautiful love
Larger than the moon, my love for you Worlds collide as heaven pulls us through The secret of the world is written in the stars I'm carrying your heart in mine
[chorus] What a beautiful smile Can I stay for awhile? On this beautiful night We'll make everything right My beautiful love
Maybe a greater thing will happen Maybe all will see Maybe our love will catch like fire As it burns through me [3x]
[chorus]
What a beautiful smile Can I stay for awhile? On this beautiful night We'll make everything right [2x]
My beautiful love La la la la love La la la la love
My beautiful La la la la love La la la la love
My beautiful love
This song is beautiful. <3
Handwritten at.10:16 PM
All I Want For Christmas Is You
Friday, December 05, 2008
I don't want a lot for Christmas There's just one thing I need I don't care about the presents Underneath the Christmas tree I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true All I want for Christmas is you
I don't want a lot for Christmas There's just one thing I need I don't care about the presents Underneath the Christmas tree I don't need to hang my stocking There upon the fireplace Santa Claus won't make me happy With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true All I want for Christmas is you baby
I won't ask for much this Christmas I don't even wish for snow I'm just gonna keep on waiting Underneath the mistletoe I won't make a list and send it To the North Pole for Saint Nick I won't even stay awake to Hear those magic reindeers click 'Cause I just want you here tonight Holding on to me so tight What more can I do Baby all I want for Christmas is you baby All the lights are shining So brightly everywhere And the sound of children's Laughter fills the air And everyone is singing I hear those sleigh bells ringing Santa won't you bring me the one I really need Won't you please bring my baby to me
I don't want a lot for Christmas This is all I'm asking for I just want to see my baby Standing right outside my door Oh I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Handwritten at.4:52 PM
OMG!
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
I'm really having lots of suspicions about you. If my suspicions are true, come on. Please, my life doesn't revolve around you. You're so childish in that sense. Like HELLO. Its kinda ironic actually, I say I don't and won't care anymore, but here i am getting angry at you, for a reason even I am not sure about. Thats rather a waste of time isn't it? And so draining.
Ok on to something more..... uplifting? Hahaha. Performance went well, love my friends who came and supported me. Gosh the boys were awesome. My buddy... Zach Chan. I wonder if he will remember me years on, when he grows up. They were so cute! I didn't bring my camera on any of the 3 days of performance. Can you believe it? Hahah so i have no pictures from camwhoring. Man i really wanted to take some photos with the cute boys. They were mostly sweet, and quite the monster they can become as well. Hahah I laughed on stage because the play was SOOOO funny. Ben was so funny. And Ben was the only one i took a photo with, WITH MY HANDPHONE. AND NO IT DOES NOT MEAN ANYTHIING.
Mt Kinabalu of homework to complete. Just about 40 days left of holidays. HOW, I'm not even started. HAHAHAH. And considering how I've been behaving the past few days, I don't know when i will start. I've been playing computer games like crazy, and watching movies online. I've watched Kung Fu Panda and Sweeney Todd : Demon Barber of Fleet Street. Sometimes I can't find the movies I want to watch, like Batman: The Dark Knight and Iron Man. Hahah I know, its illegal and I'm spoilling the industry. Bahh whoops.
Celine will lose weight during the holidays. (:
Handwritten at.8:05 PM
Crying - Sugarcult
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Picking up the pieces of a life you’ve broken Stitching it together with the seams wide open
You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot see at all You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot breathe at all What do you do when you’re alone? What do you do when no one’s home? What do you do when you’re alone? Out of control, Now on your own
Never waking up The alarm is broken Running in a dream and it’s like slow motion
You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot see at all You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot breathe at all What do you do when you’re alone? What do you do when no one’s home? What do you do when you’re alone? Out of control, Now on your own
Alone…Alone
Is there anyone out there? Is there anyone now? All I need are the details Just to find a way out
Is there anyone out there? Is there anyone now? All I need are the details And a map of your mouth
You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot see at all You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot breathe at all What do you do when you’re alone? What do you do when no one’s home? What do you do when you’re alone? Out of control, Now on your own
You can’t break away what you cannot change You can’t break away You can’t break away You can’t break away what you cannot change You can’t break away You can’t break away
Handwritten at.3:31 PM
BACK!
Friday, July 02, 2010
So I just returned from FTB 2010 yesterday! I was soooooo tired after that and my arms ached like crazy when I got back. Thank goodness I cabbed home after the camp because my bags were super heavy. I over packed for the camp thinking I would get really dirty and would need multiple changes of clothing. However, the number required in the packing list was just about right so that resulted in a heavier bag for me. Furthermore, the clothes were wet with sea water and sweat. That pretty much doubled the weight or something.
SEA WATER + SWEAT = UNPLEASANT
Well as for the camp, it was quite fun I guess. Judging from how prejudiced I am against camps in the first place, it was okay. LOL. Games, cheering, hard floors,bad food and dirty toilets. What more do you expect? I guess what really matters is the people you meet and the friendships made. My group had a good mix of people from different schools with different personalities. I guess my own inferiority complex made it difficult for me to make friends at first, but I think it got better. I don't know why it is that I always worry about what other people will think of me, yet I want to be so much more outgoing and fun. The guys in my group were really outgoing and took the lead in most games. They were all really on and took on the most physical burden. I don't know how it is that after all that I'm still aching in my neck, back and arms. In the end, our group did really well for the stations and came in first in the final challenge in our wave. Well done! (: Hahah saw a few cute guys too but could not ogle so much. Seeing SMU really makes me quite excited to go back to school. It looks really new and state of the art. And the gym, OMG! I need to totally go there and work out! I have to fully utilise it since I'm paying such high fees, and hopefully lose some weight too! The holidays are really getting to my tummy. :( I seriously cannot believe that I put on weight AFTER the camp! Like WTHeck seriously? I don't know whether my FTB group will remain friends or what will happen when we see each other in school in the future. When I suggested meeting outside of camp like an outing or something, they weren't so keen or enthusiastic about it. Someone has got take lead to organise it and I'm not sure I want that person to be me.
Today I went for the community service briefing which started at 10am. Going out early straight after coming back from camp, I was a little sleepy but managed to stay awake nevertheless. Met Lauren and Lynette there. It was great to see them again since they would need to go to FTB too! After the talk we had to sign up for the various CSPs and pay for our camps. Lauren almost got convinced or sweet talked into joining sports camp until she found out she needed to undergo a swim test. It was so funny she was like, "I cannot swim at all!". Walking around the booths I signed up for the accountancy, biz and special interest camps! I can't believe I would be going for a grand total of 4 camps altogether, what more coming from someone so un-into camps as me. I guess I have a little bit of changed my attitude towards camps now. After that, Lauren and I ate at Astons at Cathay. I had no idea that Astons was sooooo cheap! I had the Hickory BBQ grilled chicken while Lauren had the Terriyaki, both of which were served cold to us. Tsktsk, I wouldn't say I wont be patronising them anymore because of that but I actually want to try the beef steak hahah. Maybe I should have eaten that instead. Anyway was super full after that and had a great time talking to Lauren even though we see each other so often! We pinkyswore to each other to do the following:
1. Run around Sentosa 2. Watch Eclipse 3. Go shopping at Haji Lane or some other interesting unconventional shopping spots 4. Go to Dempsey 5. Watch Gossip Girls at either my place or hers! XOXOXO
Suddenly my July looks like loads of fun! I think I need a planner like what Lauren and Lynette have so as to not forget all the things I need to do! I'll prolly just print out July's calender since I've got one from FTB.
XOXOXO
Valentine's Day.8:32 PM
SCHOOL
Monday, June 28, 2010
I have to say I do miss school quite a bit. Lauging with friends, going for recess, spying on the guy sitting at the next table and nursing a crush on the teacher. Yes, its these silly frivolous things that I miss. I'm quite sure I've forgot most hardcore academics from school, but I'm excited to begin again. I've chosen to study at SMU doing accountancy and Business. I'm actually still apprehensive, my heart still lies with the sciences and math. I can't help wondering if I made the wrong choice in giving up my place in Chemical Engineering. I just pray that time will tell...
Tomorrow I'll be off to Freshman Camp. Honestly, I find it hard to be excited about it. I'm really just thinking of all the ways in which it can go wrong. I hope we don't end up doing silly retarded activities that put people (ie me) in akward positions. I'm speaking from experience here, I guess its obvious I haven't had positive experiences! After this camp, I'll have 2 more to go!
ALRIGHT! POSITIVITY! FREE YOUR MIND!
Valentine's Day.8:11 PM
Max
Little Honey Buns.
Valentine's Day.8:04 PM
Random Thoughts
Monday, May 24, 2010
Is this my first post of 2010? Hopefully I'll blog more often, but not about silly things i hope. So much has happened, yet so little. In a whiz, almost 5 months have passed. I've done so much, yet so little. Again, I hate to look back and think that I have gained so little from junior college, from life. Every moment should be a learning point, and every moment should be a meaningful one, one in which brings value to a person's life. And yet, if you live like me, unconcious of every moment and living as you take each day, there's very little to be satisfied about.
I've been working for five months. 2 months in Starhub, 3 at Raffles Hospital. Looking back, I used to complain about the work in Starhub, I work too long hours and do the same boring thing over and over again. Well at least the renumeration was satisfactory. Then after, I left to join Raffles with big dreams in my head, thinking that I was getting closer to Dental School and that a medical attachment would prop me in the right direction. Boy was I misguided, I would have been much better off working in a dental clinic. I was denied over and over opportunities to learn more about medical things and could not enjoy all the benefits that should have come with the attachment. I was relegated to doing general administrative work like reception and cashiering instead. It has now lost its meaning, especially so after I found out that I didnt get accepted into dental school. How very realistic of me. Of course I'm grateful for the experience, for whatever minimal learning I did have.
Looking forward to my 2 months break! I hope I don't spend every waking moment watching telly!
Valentine's Day.11:25 PM
Hello.
Thursday, February 04, 2010
Hi y'all.
I'm not sure if anyone reads my blog at all seeing that I dont really update it often enough. Its been more than a year now. My life is so boring and monotonous. I hate to be stuck in this kind of mediocracy but I don't know if its in my personality to be so... lacklustre. I dont know, its just that I have never actually tried to make myself stand out, taking leadership positions or joining research or competitions. Never actually consciously making any plans for my future. Somehow I feel most of the time that everyone else has it going for them, and I am the only one stuck in a rut. Of course I have so much to be thankful for and I have to be stop being so inward looking all the time. Self pity, what for? Growing up, I should have found things I love doing, found my idenity and all, but I dont really think I have found anything. Asking myself who I am, what defines me, it just is so frustrating sometimes. I hate to be so wanting everytime. I'm turning 19 this year, omgosh. I havent grown up and matured. I'm not close to my family and dont have many friends. I am thankful that I do have a few close friends whom i know love me for who I am.
I'm having one of those moments again where I fear of being so alone and having such a bla life. From a christian point of view I know that God has plans for me, plans for a hope and future. But I am not sure I have surrendered myself completely at all. Well, I guess doubt makes faith all the more precious. Whats real scary as my cell leader once said, is how God can turn to me and say "I dont know you", because I have not had a relationship with God. Christianity is not a religion, that stung me a couple of times.
If I wasnt so caught up in trying to find a job or attachment, I would really love to try find myself a hobby, something I would really enjoy. Take some time to self reflect maybe? I would really love to learn cooking, drawing and doing some exercise someday. My present job really makes me fat. Welcome to working life, or rather, working in a office life.
Valentine's Day.7:09 PM
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Hello my diary.
My first post of 2009. Its been a whirlwind of a year.
Valentine's Day.11:35 PM
Monday, December 22, 2008
Beautiful Love Lyrics Artist(Band):The Afters
Far away, I feel your beating heart All alone, beneath the crystal stars Staring into space, what a lonely face I'll try to find my place with you
[chorus] What a beautiful smile Can I stay for awhile? On this beautiful night We'll make everything right My beautiful love, my beautiful love
Larger than the moon, my love for you Worlds collide as heaven pulls us through The secret of the world is written in the stars I'm carrying your heart in mine
[chorus] What a beautiful smile Can I stay for awhile? On this beautiful night We'll make everything right My beautiful love
Maybe a greater thing will happen Maybe all will see Maybe our love will catch like fire As it burns through me [3x]
[chorus]
What a beautiful smile Can I stay for awhile? On this beautiful night We'll make everything right [2x]
My beautiful love La la la la love La la la la love
My beautiful La la la la love La la la la love
My beautiful love
This song is beautiful. <3
Valentine's Day.10:16 PM
All I Want For Christmas Is You
Friday, December 05, 2008
I don't want a lot for Christmas There's just one thing I need I don't care about the presents Underneath the Christmas tree I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true All I want for Christmas is you
I don't want a lot for Christmas There's just one thing I need I don't care about the presents Underneath the Christmas tree I don't need to hang my stocking There upon the fireplace Santa Claus won't make me happy With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true All I want for Christmas is you baby
I won't ask for much this Christmas I don't even wish for snow I'm just gonna keep on waiting Underneath the mistletoe I won't make a list and send it To the North Pole for Saint Nick I won't even stay awake to Hear those magic reindeers click 'Cause I just want you here tonight Holding on to me so tight What more can I do Baby all I want for Christmas is you baby All the lights are shining So brightly everywhere And the sound of children's Laughter fills the air And everyone is singing I hear those sleigh bells ringing Santa won't you bring me the one I really need Won't you please bring my baby to me
I don't want a lot for Christmas This is all I'm asking for I just want to see my baby Standing right outside my door Oh I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Valentine's Day.4:52 PM
OMG!
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
I'm really having lots of suspicions about you. If my suspicions are true, come on. Please, my life doesn't revolve around you. You're so childish in that sense. Like HELLO. Its kinda ironic actually, I say I don't and won't care anymore, but here i am getting angry at you, for a reason even I am not sure about. Thats rather a waste of time isn't it? And so draining.
Ok on to something more..... uplifting? Hahaha. Performance went well, love my friends who came and supported me. Gosh the boys were awesome. My buddy... Zach Chan. I wonder if he will remember me years on, when he grows up. They were so cute! I didn't bring my camera on any of the 3 days of performance. Can you believe it? Hahah so i have no pictures from camwhoring. Man i really wanted to take some photos with the cute boys. They were mostly sweet, and quite the monster they can become as well. Hahah I laughed on stage because the play was SOOOO funny. Ben was so funny. And Ben was the only one i took a photo with, WITH MY HANDPHONE. AND NO IT DOES NOT MEAN ANYTHIING.
Mt Kinabalu of homework to complete. Just about 40 days left of holidays. HOW, I'm not even started. HAHAHAH. And considering how I've been behaving the past few days, I don't know when i will start. I've been playing computer games like crazy, and watching movies online. I've watched Kung Fu Panda and Sweeney Todd : Demon Barber of Fleet Street. Sometimes I can't find the movies I want to watch, like Batman: The Dark Knight and Iron Man. Hahah I know, its illegal and I'm spoilling the industry. Bahh whoops.
Celine will lose weight during the holidays. (:
Valentine's Day.8:05 PM
Crying - Sugarcult
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Picking up the pieces of a life you’ve broken Stitching it together with the seams wide open
You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot see at all You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot breathe at all What do you do when you’re alone? What do you do when no one’s home? What do you do when you’re alone? Out of control, Now on your own
Never waking up The alarm is broken Running in a dream and it’s like slow motion
You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot see at all You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot breathe at all What do you do when you’re alone? What do you do when no one’s home? What do you do when you’re alone? Out of control, Now on your own
Alone…Alone
Is there anyone out there? Is there anyone now? All I need are the details Just to find a way out
Is there anyone out there? Is there anyone now? All I need are the details And a map of your mouth
You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot see at all You keep crying, crying, crying Till you cannot breathe at all What do you do when you’re alone? What do you do when no one’s home? What do you do when you’re alone? Out of control, Now on your own
You can’t break away what you cannot change You can’t break away You can’t break away You can’t break away what you cannot change You can’t break away You can’t break away
